„Life for men is so made that it is only bearable by lying to ourselves. Those who refuse the lie and prefer to know that life is intolerable, without however rebelling against their fate, finish by receiving from the outside, from a place outside time, something which enables them to accept life as it is.“ – Simone Weil
Meditation is really very simple. We complicate it. We weave a web of ideas round it what it is and what it is not. But it is none of these things. Because it is so very simple it escapes us, because our minds are so complicated, so time-worn and time-based. And this mind dictates the activity of the heart, and then the trouble begins.
The unknowable is what we call reality. Reality cannot be known, we cannot know reality. As long as we feel that we can know reality then we are living on the brink of the chute that sends us into this world in which we are tied up in our own consciousness.
Reality has no content or form. This is why it can’t be known. One looks around and says, “But the room is real. Surely the content of reality is the room”. No. The content of the room is what you perceive. And what you perceive with is reality. Because of you, the room is real; it is not because the room is real that you see it. Give you the opportunity to throw yourself totally into this search, beyond the glitter and titillations of existence, into this which is the source of it all, but which, when you are seeing it from the outside, is simply darkness and stillness.
Whatever is confronting you, go into it, explore it. Not intellectually or conceptually so that you can describe it to somebody or analyze it or find out its source in past situations or anything like that. If you are bored, for example, you are really going to know what it feels like to be bored. You are really going to take this on and be as bored as you can. Find a way so that you can increase the sense of being bored so that you really, really know what being bored is. Get beyond this lust for interest, for glitter.
See: ‚I am That I am‘
Exercise: Thinking through a hurt
DB: The thing to do is to find the words which express what’s going on and see what those words do, not for the purpose of the content of the words, but for the purpose of seeing what they do. There is a difference between thinking about the hurt and thinking the hurt.
Thinking about the hurt is saying that the hurt is somewhere out there and I form abstractions about it like a table, and therefore, I am not doing anything, because it isn’t a table, it’s not like the table- it’s me. The other is to think the hurt, which is to go through the thought and let it produce whatever it is going to do, which means to let it stand in consciousness without being suppressed and without being carried
out. If you say something and answer back, you are unable to observe; if you cover it up and escape, you’re also unable to observe. So suspend the activity in both directions, and just simply let it reveal itself, and see it.
Q: That would be feeling the hurt but not acting it out.
DB: It would be feeling the hurt, thinking the hurt- it’s important to see the connection between thinking the hurt and feeling. If you merely feel it, you don’t understand it. It’s like seeing the waves crashing on the shore and not seeing the waves come in. When you think the hurt and feel the hurt and then think it again, you will understand it better.